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not as tired as I was yesterday!
Nov. 20th, 2022 10:04 pmIt's been a busier than usual week with going to Lansing, getting some dental work done as well as some heavy-duty chores and not enough sleep because everyone else sleeps at night. I drove back to Negaunee from Lansing on Friday night -- the roads weren't too bad here in Michigan, but bad enough that I had to be hyper-vigilant and I got home so wired and exhausted that I didn't sleep well, and had nightmares about burying my children. Work that night was the kind of low-sleep, don't-kill-anyone torture that nursing too often is -- But! last night I got great sleep and I feel *much* better tonight.
Lisa, back up and take a look at that -- I've always thought that having nightmares about people dying, especially children dying, means that the person is ambivalent about those people. The main emotion in the dream, other than horror and grief, was guilt. I hadn't protected them; I hadn't saved them. And the weight of the responsibility of saving everyone is, um, sometimes it's awful heavy.
I need to, not get rid of because then who would I be, but at least *tone down* my superman complex. I am not a paladin; I always play a half-orc fighter, actually. Truth. Carl plays a paladin, Mike is a druid, and Sam and Luke are wizards. An interesting way to parse family dynamics.
Aaaand, speaking of saving people, I am still trying to gather a group of people to help me bring a family from Ukraine to Marquette, Michigan. (goes to previous post) I have 4 people! That's damn cool, but I need another 25-35 folks so that the financial burden isn't too much. If you have $25/wk in your budget, I'd love for you to join us!
Please pimp this! I'll leave this entry unlocked.
Here is a message from Ukraine. Let's do this. If we get enough people it won't even be very difficult.
I know, I said that I'd trim that cape; what can I say? I'm doomed to perceive personal value through service. *shrug*
Lisa, back up and take a look at that -- I've always thought that having nightmares about people dying, especially children dying, means that the person is ambivalent about those people. The main emotion in the dream, other than horror and grief, was guilt. I hadn't protected them; I hadn't saved them. And the weight of the responsibility of saving everyone is, um, sometimes it's awful heavy.
I need to, not get rid of because then who would I be, but at least *tone down* my superman complex. I am not a paladin; I always play a half-orc fighter, actually. Truth. Carl plays a paladin, Mike is a druid, and Sam and Luke are wizards. An interesting way to parse family dynamics.
Aaaand, speaking of saving people, I am still trying to gather a group of people to help me bring a family from Ukraine to Marquette, Michigan. (goes to previous post) I have 4 people! That's damn cool, but I need another 25-35 folks so that the financial burden isn't too much. If you have $25/wk in your budget, I'd love for you to join us!
Please pimp this! I'll leave this entry unlocked.
Here is a message from Ukraine. Let's do this. If we get enough people it won't even be very difficult.
Hello. My name is Olena. Both me and my family (mother - Ninel, my husband Sergii, my son Vlad and my son Serhii and me) are from the city of Mariupol, Ukraine. We have lived all our lives in Mariupol, and we also found Russia's invasion of Ukraine in Mariupol. Only the war did not start on February 24, 2022, as all the media say, but earlier, exactly on February 23, 2022, in the evening, the outskirts of our city, Russian invaders, began to pour lead rain and fire from MLRS "Grads" and it was very well audible on Pashkovsky Street, the ground shook and the glass in the windows shook... no one had windows left by the February 25 ..... it was still winter and frost - 11 C . ...... and fragments from aerial bombs and Grads scattered throughout the district, killing everything on their own way, and crashing into the walls of houses.
Therefore, we (like many other people) were forced to hide in the basements of houses .... sleep on the floor in the basement and watch cement dust and plaster pour over our heads, and prayed to God for one thing - to survive , so that the ceilings would not collapse and not filled up the basement. And then... A Russian tank started shooting at our house with direct fire, and in the end, the tank burned down our house... But we managed to escape to another area of the city, where the shelling was less, to my grandmother's old apartment..... We ran away, taking documents, a laptop and dogs (Yorkshire terriers) ...
It was impossible to leave Mariupol itself, cars with the inscription "people", "children", Russian occupiers shot at point-blank range in the first place, these were just living targets. The city was under constant shelling, even hospitals became targets. But we always had faith in God and the unity of our family, which helped us to survive. How could we helped people - bandaged the wounded, pulled them out from under the rubble, shared everything that we had. Mariupol literally from the first days was left without water, electricity, gas, pharmacies, grocery stores, police did not work, there was no mobile communication and the Internet at all .... My husband and I went to the well, drew water into large cans and shared this water with Neighbors, because in the neighborhood lived mostly only old people.
Near the house, my husband built a brazier out of old bricks and we learned how to make a fire even in pouring rain, cook food on a fire ..... and so it dragged on day after day, recalling, in a bad interpretation, "Groundhog Day" ..... ... And we finally manage to escape with the whole family from Mariupol, which the Russians had turned into a concentration camp.
We ourselves could not fully believe that the worst was over. Our hearts were full of hope for a better future and faith in the Lord. Having left Mariupol and leaving the territory of war and constant fear, I learned about the Uniting for Ukraine program! We entered Georgia (I mean Georgia as a country near Russia), then went through Turkey, Greece, Bulgaria, Romania, Hungary, Slovakia and arrived in Poland. We went on such a long journey to be in the territory of the Schengen zone of the European Union, as recorded in the Uniting for Ukraine program.
For many years, our whole family dreamed of coming to the United States of America, even for a short time, and the Uniting for Ukraine program makes it possible to get legal shelter from the war in Ukraine, during which we can and want to work, bring benefit to society and pay taxes. This program requires a Sponsor - a US citizen who can fill out a Declaration of Financial Support for our family and officially, in full accordance with the law, invite our family. But we don’t have such a sponsor, in USA yet... Therefore, we, all together: I am Olena, my husband Sergii, my son Serhii my son Vlad and mother Ninel , please and please help us . And after so many trials, make our dream come true!
I know, I said that I'd trim that cape; what can I say? I'm doomed to perceive personal value through service. *shrug*
