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nekkid lady
Oct. 3rd, 2006 11:18 amA couple of times a week, I pose nude for art students. I've been doing this for years and there are a lot of things that I enjoy, even treasure, about unclad modeling: being a part of the art process, the disciplined stillness of both mind and body, and the intersection of my love for the human form and the appreciation of my own personal body.
I don't have what most would consider a "sexy" body. More like sturdy and round, strong and able to withstand a fair-sized famine, that's me. Add to that description "maternal" and "mature".
Ninety percent of the students are young enough to be my children and I strongly doubt that any of them see me as a sexual object. This is very good, because I'm not there to be oogled, but also somewhat disheartening because, damnit, I am a sexual woman and I would like to be sexually appealing, in a general way. I think that what I'd like would be if the artists did think that I was beautiful and sexy, but were too professional to appear to think so, instead of the current state of their indifference.
All of the above aside, I am very comfortable in my skin. Beyond that, I'd say that I'm very comfortable in my person. I think that this translates into a kind of confidence - that's an outside-looking-in observation, so I'm not sure how true it might be. Confidence and inner calm are good things, to be sure -- perhaps more valuable to a being, even to a woman, than physical beauty and sex appeal.
I don't have what most would consider a "sexy" body. More like sturdy and round, strong and able to withstand a fair-sized famine, that's me. Add to that description "maternal" and "mature".
Ninety percent of the students are young enough to be my children and I strongly doubt that any of them see me as a sexual object. This is very good, because I'm not there to be oogled, but also somewhat disheartening because, damnit, I am a sexual woman and I would like to be sexually appealing, in a general way. I think that what I'd like would be if the artists did think that I was beautiful and sexy, but were too professional to appear to think so, instead of the current state of their indifference.
All of the above aside, I am very comfortable in my skin. Beyond that, I'd say that I'm very comfortable in my person. I think that this translates into a kind of confidence - that's an outside-looking-in observation, so I'm not sure how true it might be. Confidence and inner calm are good things, to be sure -- perhaps more valuable to a being, even to a woman, than physical beauty and sex appeal.