more decisions
Mar. 11th, 2016 01:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ljgeoffLast week, I went up to the UP to visit Carl and his family. All is well up there, and I worked my ass off for 4 days, working with Carl to clean out the basement and declutter the house. We filled up a rented dumpster, and hauled off four van-loads of clothes, books and miscellaneous housewares to the resale stores.
They were still sorting through baskets of clean clothes when I left. In between hauling, sorting, and dumping, I got to spend good time with my grandchildren -- Seth (7.5 yrs), Jareth (4 yrs), Eilie (2.5 yrs), and Carli (5 months).
When I returned to Lansing, Luke surprised me: "When I start school in Negaunee this fall, I'd like to come back to Lansing once a month or so to visit everyone. I think it'd be ok to miss one day a month; they can give me my work and I'll do it on the drive."
This was a somewhat confusing announcement, as he had not taken the time to say that he'd decided to start school in Negaunee this September. Try to keep up, I muttered inside my head. I was driving, taking him to his theater group, and I flashed him a look. "Makes more sense to start in September, mmm?"
He nodded and raised his brow expectantly. I realized I hadn't answered his question. "Yeah, once a month should be ok. We'll figure something out."
He nodded and started talking to me about a new game he'd played on Steam. "You'd like this one; very cool," he said.
I've decided that I'm not going to move out of the house right now. I decided in the way I usually decide things: I thought of moving and I though of not moving, and I paid attention to how my gut felt. My gut says stay. Not that there aren't reservations, but overall it's the right choice for now. It doesn't have anything to do with hopes that Mike and my relationship will magically heal. It has to do with uncertainty about Jerome's stability, not wanting to hassle with moving and disrupting myself as well as the kids, and figuring that I'm going to be moving out for good in nine months. There's a part of me that is pre' well closed off, but I'm functioning ok.
Classes start Monday, March 14 and end April 24. Labor and delivery, and long-term care. And then I can test for my LPN. Whew.
They were still sorting through baskets of clean clothes when I left. In between hauling, sorting, and dumping, I got to spend good time with my grandchildren -- Seth (7.5 yrs), Jareth (4 yrs), Eilie (2.5 yrs), and Carli (5 months).
When I returned to Lansing, Luke surprised me: "When I start school in Negaunee this fall, I'd like to come back to Lansing once a month or so to visit everyone. I think it'd be ok to miss one day a month; they can give me my work and I'll do it on the drive."
This was a somewhat confusing announcement, as he had not taken the time to say that he'd decided to start school in Negaunee this September. Try to keep up, I muttered inside my head. I was driving, taking him to his theater group, and I flashed him a look. "Makes more sense to start in September, mmm?"
He nodded and raised his brow expectantly. I realized I hadn't answered his question. "Yeah, once a month should be ok. We'll figure something out."
He nodded and started talking to me about a new game he'd played on Steam. "You'd like this one; very cool," he said.
I've decided that I'm not going to move out of the house right now. I decided in the way I usually decide things: I thought of moving and I though of not moving, and I paid attention to how my gut felt. My gut says stay. Not that there aren't reservations, but overall it's the right choice for now. It doesn't have anything to do with hopes that Mike and my relationship will magically heal. It has to do with uncertainty about Jerome's stability, not wanting to hassle with moving and disrupting myself as well as the kids, and figuring that I'm going to be moving out for good in nine months. There's a part of me that is pre' well closed off, but I'm functioning ok.
Classes start Monday, March 14 and end April 24. Labor and delivery, and long-term care. And then I can test for my LPN. Whew.