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[ljgeoff]

My family has a history of mood disorder. My dad and some of my sisters have fought with mild depression and I have first cousins who are being treated for bipolar. I have a tendency toward mania -- a kind of excessive exuberance and feeling like I can do anything. But lately my two moods aren't depression/mania -- they're exhausted and in pain/not exhausted and in pain. Especially the "in pain" part.

It's almost 9am, and I'm just getting Luke and Kyle off to school. I got to bed a little before 1am -- Sam woke me up at 6am looking for bus change, but I was able to get back to sleep with the plan to just sleep in until I was rested. I figured it was more important for me to feel better than for Luke and Kyle to get to school on time. Luke got up at 8:45, but I was half awake - with a headache, of course.

I'm don't know what was harder - now or when the boys were babies and we really didn't have any money. I was tired all the time then, too, but without the pain. And we had less money, but I had more support. All I have now is this little black machine sitting on my lap.

Well, the Excedrin is working. I don't know what I'd do without that stuff. It makes me more nauseous, but it pushes the pain back for a while. I think that if the pain was anywhere else but in my head, I'd be able to just deal. Well, I'm "dealing", in a fashion.

Today, I just have to work at the lovely home health job from 1pm-9:30. And go sell my plasma, since I'm feeling better. If I feel well enough tonight, I need to study my Pharmacology and work on a paper that is due next week. Yikes, and I've got to write up that Indigenous Peoples presentation abstract - I better see if I missed the deadline.

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People in Pain - helping people in pain

[docdad2.livejournal.com]

I find that the people that I work with are, more often than not, people in pain. They do hard work and work tirelessly at tasks that others just walk by. I think they (and I) know that just a little bit of understanding or help, or recognition goes so very far in helping move the healing process forward.
Headaches were the hardest or me. My body felt fine. I could do the work even though I was in pain. I'm a happier lad now that my migraines have not visited me in several years. I shudder a the memories.
I wish you well with the paper.
D

Re: People in Pain - helping people in pain

[ljgeoff.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Doc. The Excederin worked well today, all day -- six doses, though. Kinda rough on the liver and stomach.

The paper will be fantastic.