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[ljgeoff]

Hmm, no entry in almost a month...

I'm feeling odd today (I first typed "off" which is also true)- lethargic, and angry but I don't know what I'm really angry at. I feel like I want to go lay down and tell everyone to leave me alone, but I'm not sleepy. For me, this is depression. Maybe it's just today. It doesn't seem like it was this bad yesterday. Yesterday, I made baklava for the SCA group. It turned out well. But at the meeting, and later, and Len and Laura's, I felt like I was feeling everything through a layer of cotton.

The last eight weeks have been very stressful on the money front. Mike is averaging about 15 hrs a week -- it's not enough. Being around Len is also somewhat stressfull at times. I love them both, and I'm conflicted about how to communicate my needs.

Conflicted, hell. I don't want to communicate with anyone right now. I just want to go lay down, and maybe eat something, and watch tv or read a book. And tell everyone to leave me alone.

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[kightp.livejournal.com]

*awwwwww*

Have a virtual sign:

LEAVE LISA THE HELL ALONE.

-- The Management

[ljgeoff.livejournal.com]

Just got home from nine hours at work. That sounds bad, but it was ok. My job is somewhat mindless. Got home, made supper (Mike helped, and helped do dishes, too) and now, from my computer corner, I can survey my worse-for-wear kingdom. But it *sounds nice*. Kids are laughing. Luke is putting together a puzzle - now he's picked up one of the puzzle pieces and is shooting it like a gun - now it's a rocket ship.... The dog is lapping up the spilled cereal in the livingroom...

Things could be worse. I think I'll mosey on upstairs and watch tv in my bedroom.